听天由命

Studying vs working!!! A decision between this two? Hmmm how? Is thjs what people meant by decision of life? Is mine life really that way? Should I just give up studies and work? Is it alright for me? Would it have a better ending?  I really dont know -.-

2013

1st day of 2013 and I dont know what was I doing, I told myself to let go but when I heard about you, I feel so scare and ran ober to you. It is true that you doesn't like me but I cannot force nyswlf to stop liking you. I made a big mistake,  I know I shouldn't do it but I know regrets of ot doing is worst. Before I did it, I knew the answer but my expectation doesn't feel that. I xannot force you to like me as much I do, but deep inside there is some feelings there.  I know everything should be over by now. I know I'm not suppose to act as how I did. I always know give out doesn't means you wil get same in return. But, just have to learn to face it, this time cannot there will always be next time. All these are just part of life. Learn no to expect too much, you will be so hurt in the end. What I know is that treating someone special is a pleasure, but you cannot expect them to do the same. Therefore, least expect least hurt. Learn to be strong, and believe less in it. Hope 2013 would be better

很有意思

【放手吧，別再死抱著 不適合的感情 】

在廚房忙著的媽媽，聽見她四歲小孩子的哭啼聲。她趕緊衝到客廳去看看孩子。原來，孩子的手插進了擺設用的《花瓶》裡。

《花瓶》上窄下闊，所以，小孩的手伸進去卻伸不出來。母親用了不同的辦法，想要把卡著的手拿出來，但都不得要領。

媽媽開始焦急，她稍為用力一點，小孩子就痛得叫苦連天。在無計可施的情況下，媽媽想了一個下策，就是把《花瓶》打碎。

可是她有些猶豫，因為這個《花瓶》是一件價值連城的古董。不過，為了兒子的手能夠拔出，這是唯一的辦法。結果，她忍痛將《花瓶》打破了。

雖然損失不菲，但兒子平平安安，媽媽也就不太計較了。她叫兒子將手伸給她看看有沒有損傷。

雖然孩子完全沒有任何皮外傷，但他的拳頭仍是緊握住似的無法張開。是不是抽筋呢？媽媽又再驚惶失措。

原來，小孩子的手不是抽筋。他的拳頭張不開，是因為他緊捉著一個十元硬幣。 為了這一個硬幣，所以手被卡在《花瓶》的口內。

小孩子的手伸不出來，其實，不是因為《花瓶》口太窄，而是因為他不肯放手。

感情的事，很多時都是盲目的。你曾為他做的事，當日，你是多麼的覺得天經地義；今天，你卻感到荒謬到極。

盲目是幸福的，《前提》是盲目能維持一生一世。

問題是，有一天，我和你都會像小孩子一樣，發現自己被感情問題卡住了，動彈不得。問題出現了，你煩得天都要倒下來。你希望尋求方法解脫，但全都徒勞。

別人說：「問題不是你所想的複雜，只是你肯放手就解決了。」你卻偏偏不肯放手。

這時，你不會想：「這樣值不值？」你只會自問：「我還愛不愛？」

只要是愛，你覺得再沒有甚麼要猶豫。你會很努力解決彼此之間的問題。你一直守下去，你不會放手。

其實，放手就立刻解決問題，只是大家都逃避這個事實。你寧願受著牢籠，都不願解脫。

「這段感情值得這樣折磨下去嗎？」你的朋友會勸你放棄。你不相信，這份愛，只是一枚十元硬幣。

你忍痛執著這份感情，不惜代價，消耗了許多眼淚，虛度了不少的歲月，放棄去認識可能﹝更適合你﹞的人。

放手，給你帶來更大的釋放，讓你擁有全新的人生。

為了區區十元，打碎了一個古董花樽，小孩子當時不會了解，也不會後悔，因為他不了解他執著那個硬幣的機會成本是那麼大。

* 故事中的小孩長大了之後，才會了解花樽的價值，也才會明白自己昔日的愚昧 ^.^

快乐要靠自己不断努力寻找 等待它的出现并不可靠

很多事情不是靠执着就可以换来的，譬如爱情，它是靠感觉来的。
就算我对你有在多的好感，可是你对我没有感觉的话。
所有事情都白费。因为，只是我一个在等待吧！！
人不是每次在愛情里，都成功的。
所以可以试着不要抓的太紧，试下放手。
如果是你的一定会回来的。
做人看开一点，什么事情都会变间单。
可是，人不可以还没坚持到最后，就放弃！
坚持有时是一种责任，一种信任！！！
答应的事情，一定要做到，就算不能也要尽全力！

Decision

我做了对的选择吗？ 说真的我不知道因为未来的事没有人懂。
我只知道我答应你的事情，我一定会做到！！！！
💪💪💪💪💪💪💪为了你我拼了！！！！！！！😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
我知道不会容易，可是世上无难事，只怕有心人！！！！！ 😊😊😊😊
加油加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😊😊😊

很多事情不是我们可以控制的，想的太多是浪费力气和精神。。。
它要吗来，不要就不要咯，不要一直去烦恼啦！！！
想酱多，它不来你就暗脆，来了就好咯！！！！
先做好自己啦！！！！！
自己拿来烦的！！！！

男人

19岁而已，做了决定就不要害怕结果，如果怕就不要去做。没有人拿枪逼你!!!!
不要等到后悔了才去伤心。

Goodbye, The Truth... RIP...

原来我一直怀疑的事情更本就没有存在过，也真的我一直在多想而已。
所以呀，我想到真的觉得自己很可笑，原来我真的好笨哦！！！！！
我不会怪你因为你真的并不懂，我也保证不会有历史从演！！！！！
所以现在，我什么都不想了，因为为了一个人付出不定要回报啊！！
只要你开开心心的，我也很满足了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

而从今开始，我发誓此事我不会在和任何人提起了！！！！！！！！

to get what you cannot get, you must do what you had never did before

I believe external force is making things worst, therefore, I have hand in the question to god. I know He will give me a satisfied answer :) eventho, if He do not, I will bear with all the consequence :) I know I have to see things on different angle. Not always the first angle is the best view, because first angle could sometimes be a mistake or even something had blocked it. Therefore, we can view from different angle :)

Let's slowly and wait miracles to happen. Right time, Right place and the Right person will arrived :) I have no rush over it any more :) I believe good things always come in the end :) lets do your best and wait for things to happen :) 

Everything will be great with a positive mind :D 

Friendship

Pure frienship ; PERHAPS

单纯的友谊 ; 我怀疑着

我不明白我自己在想什么，也不懂在期待什么。

对你来说也不重要，也许是没重要过。

也是我一厢情愿而已吧。

也许也是我一个人在胡思乱想。

不管是还是不是

好了不想了，等你找个好男友吧！！！

就当永远的好朋友吧

New Journey

It had been long time since i last writing anything here. Times flies, it had already been mid of august, everything seems fine i suppose. For the past few weeks, have been a lot of question running in my mind. There were goods and bads. Alot of things happened past thru the last 2 months. A lot of things are seems to be changing, enviroment, taughts, people and many many more. But still i am still clear of what i want and needs.

人永远都有不可告知的秘密，有一个没人知道的一面。

后悔只是一个让自己好赶过翩的借口而已，因为选择是自己决定的。

I know at this point of time i am regret because it was once what i wanted. But i simply just cannot do anything about it.

Things happens for a reason, the reason may be faith....

有缘无份。

Music

Recently, i realised something weird about myself.... 我发现我爱上爱唱歌的女生了，她们的歌声深深把我吸引了。可能是因为我太爱听歌了吧、对她们都有一种崇拜的感觉吧！！！可能也是因为我太想念妳的歌声了吧。我希望以后可以找到一位和妳一样爱唱歌的女生吧。。。。。

Money vs FReedom

可能金钱这东西让人又爱又恨。在金钱的世界里，可以把人性和性格分开很多种。有时候，人赚钱不是因为没钱，而人花钱不是因为没钱。

I don't know why but it is just very weird... This week I had taught of a lot of things related to life. I once think if I could have money, i could settles things I needed or properly I could settle my life. But, I know I was wrong. Not everything on the earth you could buy with money. For example, families, relationship, happiness. But, I was wrong.

I realized I was really lucky to have such family. From what I saw, I know everything single must have scarifies. MONEY vs FREEDOM!!!! Could this be true???? I don't know cause I haven't really step into the life of careers.

But, whenever I saw you, you reminds me of how lucky I am. I know you have been working so hard just for your goals and dreams. I really feel that I really cannot give a hand but to watch you having hard times.

Your smile, your voice. I still deeply remember... You are one happy penguin that should live happily :) really hope you get well soon and get to set all the foods you were cravings for :)

不具名的悲傷

It is time to let go,

It is time to move on,

Everything that reminds of me is just the memories and those things I expected... 

I will never touch or say about it again!!! 

I know it is already impossible, everything just had to end now... so why still so stubborn to hold it!!!

Werther it worth me to do a not?? I believe this answer will be review by time!!! 

TIME!!!! That's what everyone need.. No all the things can be gone or forget by a blink of eyes...

Life is just like a clock!! You cannot move the real time back, you can only adjust the time but not the things it already happened!!! 

Even there is a chance, still you won't confirm you won't make the same mistake or decision...

Therefore, just take precaution or get ready for those things it may happen...

I am going to make sure this is the last time I am going to talk about these...

EVERYTHING IS OVER!!! EVERYTHING IS DONE!!! NO POINT OF STAYING STILL ALREADY!!! MOVE ON!!!

伊默

在这年龄的我太幼稚了。每天都在烦无聊的事情，而跟你比起来你在烦的事情比我的还要重要x10倍！！！！！我好想很幼稚哦

什么是爱？？？
说起我真的不懂，我只知道是要让心中的你开心，无论做什么都好。可能这也是我唯一会做的事情。我真的不知道未来会怎样，所以我也不知道要放多少，但是从一开始我就把整颗心放在你身边了。我也慢慢的习惯不在去打扰你了。我只希望你快乐开心。因为，想太多也没有，因为，只能想而以。算了不想了。。。

可能一开始我们都不适合彼此。。。
我们也只配当朋友。。。。。。

我现在是时候把自己处理好！！！！才去想未来！！！！

你过的好我就安了 （：

洋蔥

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密...

天后

Seriously it had been quite some time since we last have talk or we even meet up but I just wanna say I really miss you... From the start, everything I taught is just all my feelings, I know I didn't bother about yours much and I don't even stand at your side to think about it...

Sometimes, not everything will fade away by time, some feelings is permanent, this has show how strong is it...

Everything that we had gone trough, every single word you had said all I still remembered clearly... Hope I wish we just stay that way... I know this is fate, no matter what I did or what happened all had set...

Sometimes, people must try to control themselves, control their feelings, taught, emotions....

Everything just worth to remember and put in the memories....

距离

Even tho, I seems down and lonely now here. I don't need anyone to make me feel that I am actually meaningful because deep inside my heart I already had that one person that make me feel like I am actually living meaningfully in this world.

Even tho, I know that this person only supposed for me to think inside and not let me show it out loud to cause any problems, I really don't mind because I know I can't had her. I will just keep it inside my heart. I don't mind the distance how far because I know she is inside my heart. I don't even need to meet her, I will feel that she will also around me.

I can actually live happily as how I like. I don't even need to bother what people talk about me. Single is just a status, your heart determined what your position. So don't stress over the future, don't regret for the past, live you life max present.


Even tho, sometimes I am jealous about it but I know i cannot talk about it, because talk won't change things, so I will use my action to just make myself feel better :) I know what's best for me!!!! I really don't needs gone to tell me....

Recently, I had watched a movie. From the movie, I had learnt that everything is fate, everything is already set, no matter how many a couple that broken and couple with someone else, in the end he or she will be back together because this is fate and they. Are meant to be together, every tints happens just because of misunderstanding and problems. All this is done to show that that how important is another half and they had to see how strong their love are!!!! long distance is seriously a big problem... In the end they still get back to each other... :)


Actually I am trying to say that let's not force anything just go with the flow, if it is yours, end of the day it will go back to you :)


Anyway, finals tmw wish me luck :D



Nights :)

勇气

命运就是如此的奇怪，明明两个相爱着对方的都没的在一起。而和你走一生的确不是你心中最想要的那位。事情就是如此的奥秘。

其实，我发现你是那给了我最多感觉的那位。是你让我无法在对任何人跟好。是你对我的人生有了最大的改变。是你让我感觉到对一个人的真心。是你教会我很多事情。感谢你的路过，感谢你给的美好回忆。是你让我明白了命运。

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