you are the reason I am here

hmmmph, i wonders if you will still read my blog??? actually, i got nothing much to comment about that because is your right or your choice to read it, i cannot force you to do so...

it is true that everyone is stressed up, no matter is you or me or anyone. just want to let you know gambateh! no matter what happens you can just give me a call or smth to let me know so that i could help you out... i know i cannot help much but at least let me know so that i could do something. i really dont want to see you becomes very stressful anf also something see you very down because of some reason. you wont know how much it could really make me happy if i could really help you out and help you to face problems...

probably, you are stronger then me but yet i still believe i could really help you out....

i hope you wont get pissed at whateveri said but i just want you to be happy and cheerful at all time because thats the cutest of you :)

hmmmmph, currently staying over at the hospital because everyone seems tired therefore, as a family memeber i should give a hand :)

anyway, i hope after you read this, you will let me to help you out :) or maybe if i annoyed you, i am sorry :)

say hello to goodbye, it will gone forever...

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! screw everything up already la!!!!!!!!! ee coming, psycho poster have to hand in, grandma in hospital!!!!!!! how to handle all these at once ah? damn fucked up already la!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! what can i do now?????????? i wanna go and sleep and nvr awakes again............. stop bringing more troubles to me!!!!!!!!

hmmmmmph, sometimes things really seems weird, you wanted it to happen last time, it will only start to happens now and you doesnt care about it now...... hmmph, is this hows life supposed be? or maybe timing problem? hmmmph, trust me...not that i am giving up or smth just that i understood that timing and also that good things worth waiting so lets pause it for awhile and play it back after everything back to normal!!!!!!! because i know mans cannot multi task and also multi task is very tiring... maybe things will be changing after today...

memorable past=not moving on but pause for awhile


i have to said that i have already lost!!!!! I lose everything already!!!! this is the process that could make me be stronger because after all the while i am not stromg at all hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmph!!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!! i am thinking of giving life up but whats the whole point? haihz fuck my life.... you all win already, i surrender already ah!!!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why is my life so miserable in a sudden one ah?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf is all this?????????? garhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my life is affected already, i have no choise but to follow hmmph ... do you think this is good thing? hmmmph!!!! what can i say much? my life just simply screw up, i am the one who causes it hmmph, i really need someone to hold on? but it really seems impossible haihz!!!! i must be strong and must not hold on anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope that before making a decision, there would be a preview of how it will affects our future but sadly, i doesnt seems exist in this world because no one can predict your future....... it is just too late to regrets, really hate myself for creating so many trouble to myself!!!!!!! i can only admit that i am dumb and stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the only thing i should say is

i am offically missing you!!! i know good things wont happens for the second time, but i kept all these in the deeply part of my memorises....no matter it is worth or not worth, i will just slowly wait....hmmph!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT, I DON'T LIKE SURPRISE OR WHATEVER SHIT BECAUSE I WANT TO GET MYSELF FULLY PREPARE BEFORE ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


DONT BOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO RELEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH THE BLOODY EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN THEY BE ANYTHING THAT I COULD BE HAPPY OF COMING INSTEAD OF THOSE SAD AND TIRING THINGS THAT KEEPS ON HURTING ME????? I AM REALLY SICK OF HURTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BEG YOU!!!!!!!! STOP COMING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED SOMETHING THAT'S HAPPY THAT WORTH ME BE LIVING AGAIN, PLEASE I BEG YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



BAD THINGS WON'T YOU FEEL TIRED BECAUSE YOU ARE KEEP ON MOVING ALONG TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHERES ALL THE HAPPY THINGS, DON'T BE SHY TO ME LA PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HMMMPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


DEAR BAD THING, IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT I MAKE YOU FEEL SO INTERESTED IN ME PLEASE STOP PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DON'T SCREW ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ALREADY ENOUGH OF ALL THESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED TO REST ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SURRENDER TO YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!












LASTLY,

NO MATTER WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW, NO MATTER HOW BAD THE SITUATION IS, NO MATTER WHAT'S WRONG BETWEEN US, I ALWAYS HAVE A VERY SINCERE HEART TO WAIT FOR YOU TO GIVE ME A CHANCE ONE DAY ...

淘汰

我说了所有的谎
你全都相信
简单的我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情
我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

虽然我愿意

HAVE THE VERY HIGH MOTIVATION TO KEEP UPDATE AND UPDATE BECAUSE THIS IS THE PLACE THAT I COULD ONLY TALK TO AND SHOUT OUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY IS THAT I HAVE LOST ALREADY!!!!!

I SURRENDER ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

I WISH I AM A ROBOT!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you won't know how much you mean to me, because you only have him in your heart ):

ahhhhh!!!!!! mentally and physically gonna break down soon... things happens too quicky when no one is prepared ah!!!!!! i feel so useless now...cant even handle a single things...haihz... ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to makes everything to be happy.... i want everyone around to be always happy and laugh!!!!! i must not tell anyone my sadness anymore because i dont want to see people to be sad!!!!!! people cheer up!!!! all i need you all to do is stay happy :)

ahhhh!!!!!! so sleepy *yawn non stops!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh and also grandma faster get well and i still need you to be around with me...dont leave us just like that... stay strong because i am waiting for you...

hmmmph, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

AH!!!!!!!

start of with raining in the morning....hmmmph, mood swing like the tree when winds blow...cannot predict what will happens next...maybe the nearest persom could hurt you the most? maybe the closest friends could make you feels moody? maybe? so many maybe on my mind now haihz... why are there so many things to worried about? hmmph... i dont wanna think so much but i know i cant do it... hmmmph.....seriously feels so miserable now.

hmmmph, i know you are very stress. i wll try to give you a hand to help you slove all your problems :) cheer up peeps :)

FIRST LOVE!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmph, had a very productive weekend....On Friday night, stayed over at grandparents place to teman them for a night because didn't really have much time to visit them lately...
Hmmph, Saturday went to KL with friends to get some stuff for I care day...then went for badminton with friends... At night, friends stayed over at my place...then, this morning went basketball, after that went pyramid and that's all for my whole busy weekend :)

Hmmph, have been thinking alot these few days, maybe because I was too erm maybe should say I have been really stress on something lately hmmph, I want to SHOUT IT OUT but then probably no one will care!!!! HAIHZ!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!!!!

WHY AM I THINKING SO MUCH?????
WHY OTHERS THINKS SO DIFFERENT??????
I DON'T WANT TO SCREW IT PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I PROMISE THAT I WILL TAKE STEP BY STEP TO MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


STEP
BY
STEP

IT IS THE BEST SOLUTIONS!!!!!!

SMILE!!!!!!NOT A FAKE ONE PLEASE!!!!

THIS SO BE ENOUGH!!!

NIGHT! NIGHT! NIGHT!