走了好几年,又回到原点

Have been a while I didn't talk to you. Like seriously, why it is so hard to forget a person that you fell deeply in love with? I dont know what to talk to you about, I feel so stupid and useless when I saw someone can make you laugh. I think I'm jealous also. Why must be so sad? I thought everything had gone but why sometimes it still appear in my heart. Why am I still so jealous? Why am I still feel so shy when I see you? Why I could so speechless when I saw you? Can all these be cure please? I lost in this battle. I really hard to make myself happy when I see you. I know you wont feel like that cause you think i am just a joker but i just feel sad sometimes. I try so hard to think of something to talk to you because i don't want to be some stupid idiots talk craps to you. I scare that you feel weird about me after that. Rather not to disturb you, then make you think i am an idiots.

I hope the you will understand how i feel now.

bye~