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All if sudden, feel like crapping again!!!! I shall no regret on my decision!!! Cruel to yourself make things less complicated!!!!

Everyone had changed!!!! Some changes are just hard to accept but what I can do is just to accept it!!!!! I never I could be so failed!!! But it is good also it let me see how screw I am now!!!! It also let me realized, I am the one the had problem not the others!!!!!! I think I shall just don't give a fuck about this!!!! I know what is good for me!!!!

Whatever it is, what I can do is just chilled and think about what is my next step!!!! Seriously I don't need anyone to let me feel that I am actually worth loving for!!!! Because I know all these are lies!!!! It is the biggest joke on earth!!!!! If you disagree then I am speechless!!!!!

I know what is best for me!!!! I no need people to tell an remind. I know how to express my feelings!!!! I don't think people around are bother but except for few of them!!!

Those people are seriously the one you can actually totally be yourself and they are still feel comfortable with you!!!!!! I like this feelings and spending times with them!!! They know how to treasure and appreciate!!!!!! In front of them I can be all myself!!!! I like who I mix that could make me feel happy and know the value!!!!!

Anyway!!! I think I will stopped my chee sin ness and get my ass off to the bed!!!!!


Night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

错了在错

I was wrong all the while!!!!! I taught when I cone to uni life will be much better!!!!! I was wrong!!!! It just turn worst!!!!

The truth is you will hardly find people that could understand how you feel!!!! Most of them are just noisy!!!! You will never get what you in the end!!!!!!

Something was bothered and pissed me off today!!!!! for you people may think is a small problem but can you all actually think of the other way!!!! I know you all want benefit but please think properly first!!!!

Probably my life had fell to the bottom that's why so many thing doesn't seems right for me!!!!! Argh!!! Seriously fuck life!!!!!

I swear from now onwards who ever wanna to talk about me you better shut up!!! For those who think I need their attention fuck off please!!!! For those who want to show care to me, I suggest you not too!!!!! I won't give a damn!!!!!!

I will stop wasting my fucking time on those people I think is unwanted and those doesn't appreciate!!!!!!! If you realized somethings has gone wrong you better keep you fucking mouth shut and say nothing!!! Because I have change!!! I won't be like how I used to be!!!

I shall stop bothering how people thinks about me!!!! I won't give a damn to it!!!! You wanna think is your problem!!!! I can just say I have reason on what I did!!!!

I advise those people that doesn't really know the story of me please don't waste time judging!!!! Your choice I cannot say anything much!!!! I will only listen to those that understands me :) because at least they know the behind story!!!!!

Somehow, I believe action doesn't really speaks out a person personality and attitude!!!! So know him/her well enough only you start to think the thing he/ she doing is Right or wrong!!!!! So please doesn't because he/she did something that public think is bad then you all think he/she doesn't have a good personality and have attitude problem!!!!!


Enough of all these!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Night!!!!

不是故意

I guess everything have end :) I realized one thing when you fall for a person, you will be emo hahaha but now I am alright dy!!!! I know where's the limit and when to stop :) I know I may sound mean but seriously, I must stop at the nonsense because I don't want to create problem anymore!!!! I don't want to waste anymore time!!! I shall just start and get my ass off to studies instead of playing a fool!!!!! :)

Trust me!!! To be cruel to yourself, you surly won't get hurt much!!!! Like me now :D

I know what's happening around so let's just continue my journey!!! I believe I had cross the difficulties part!!!! Let's continue :D

To be true, I cannot find any reason why people can change so fast maybe is because I change slow hahaha :P

And also, I really cannot find such quality girl like you weih! Eventho, I don't have the feel for you!!! I really treat you like my younger sis :D I just want to protect you like how I protect my family and also treat you like how bro treat sis :) I don't mind giving the best to you because I had never find someone like this before!!!! hahaha


I know you will treat the same :) I believe you can be happy too when you meet someone you love :) I really hope that someone will treat you well :) I don't want to see you get hurt again!!! Did I mention that your smile is the most beautiful one I ever see haha this is so true :)

Anyway, I feel so much better after advise :) haha


Bye :D

北極星的眼淚

Humans are really complicated!!!! You know the feelings of FTW!!!! when you fall for on that you not supposed to???? The feelings that so fucked up your mind but yet you still cannot do anything??? How fucked up I am to bring such problem to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what I can say, I am just trying to get myself in troubles!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!!

It is the life I want???
Is that the person suits me????
Does that person what I worth to fight for????
Is that the RIGHT ONE????
You never know how much a heart will ache when you feel for someone???
Thats fuked up!!!!!

Feelings is there, but the faith is not there!!!!!!!
Does true love really exist???
True love really can win everything????
whatever it is should i continue???
Does it worth me to hold on???
Does everything have an good endings????
HANG ON or MOVE ON???
HOLD ON or GIVE UP???
ANY SUGGESTION???
CAN YOU GIVE ME A SIGN TO MOVE TO THE NEXT STEP????



SIGN PLEASE!!!!!!!
FUCK LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forever love!!!!

Are you the one? Should I put everything on you again? I am scare of getting hurt anymore!!! I am scare that history will repeat. I don't want to to be so confident and end up get fucked up again!!!! When come to these things, I am so stress about you!!! I know I am lack of confident and I am scare to get hurt again!!!! I know you are a very good person!!!! I also you know you quite straight forward but then I am just scare because you too friendly!!!! I don't know :( I need someone to help me :( I need someone clam me down and could just give me some advice!!!! I am really terrified about this!!!! I don't know what should I do to protect myself!!!!! I am tired and I am scare :(

我的心中有很深的伤口

actually, the scar still there. just that i need someone else to cover it up for me!!! i dont know who but seriously cannot be you anymore!!! i rather choose to give up then be the awkward way we were!!!! i dont know that someone i mention could let me cover up!!!! You just cannot simply move on, but you need someone else to carry you forward!!!


I sincerely wish you have a greast future!!! I know someone else could love you more then I used to be!!!! I hope your one will treat you better then how i used to treat!!!

there are alot of things I decided not to tell because i know even i tell it wont change anything!!! I tried so best not to even bother about you but sometimes, i will hate myself for seeing you like that!!!!

sometimes, those memories still stay fresh in my mind no matter how long it happens!!!!

After all these happens, i am really afaird to fall for someone because i dont want to get the same outcomes again! i dont mind being single then being hurt again!!! I shall try my best to keep myself single until i am out to work :) thats the best solution i think :)

i shall focus everything on my studies then will talk about others :)