你爱怎样就怎样

Everything seems to be fine! :) love my week hehe :) maths exam coming soon need to get ready :) enjoy my Saturday night with badminton :)

不是我不明白

Sometimes, I really don't understand myself!
I don't even know what I am doing!
Keep on telling myself to let go!
Yet I seems to let go physically but not mentally!
I keep telling myself that I don't deserve you because I am not a very good guy!
I keep destroying my hopes towards you!
I keep force myself not to talk to you!
I try to make you hate me so that I could totally move on!
I try so hard to think about you!
I keep trying all the thing I could do to make myself to forget but it seems so hard!
WHY???
I want to know why???
I am really miserable and tired already!
I know it is an end but yet I still believe there are still bit chance!!!!!!
I hate myself to have that bit of chance!!!!!!!!!! '
I want to know what I could do much???
Can you give me a tight slap so that I could totally be gone?
HAIHZ!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T DESERVE THIS SERIOUSLY!
I DON'T DESERVE A CHANCE!
CANT I JUST LET GO?
WHY??? ARGH!

HAIHZ! I AM LOST SERIOUSLY! I KNOW I MUST LOSE COMPLETELY SO THAT I WONT LOOK BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HAIHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tears is to wash away the past, so that we could be out happily again :)

I don't have to bother actually because since I promise not to look back why do I still want to bother so much????

Haihz!!!! WTF is wrong with me? choose to let go yet still wanna care so much???

I DON'T WANNA BE SO FUCK PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAIHZ I AM SORRY!!!!!!

I AM OKAY :D

finally understood it :) hahaha i am so happy because holding on too much could really cause alot of damage to everyone :( wish i dont want to see that :) i choose to let go because somehow i dont deserve you, i felt usless when he told me everything :) no point holding on something if you think it couldnt come back no matter how much you gave out to :) i just not the right person :) so let it be :) from now on i am gonna be happy :) let be happy that is the thing i am need to do now :) it was hard but i am gonna move on hahaha :) i must not even look back :) anyway this coming thrusday gonna be so fun because i am gonna go pennag with the gang :)

Sorry That I Love You....

2nd semester of AUSMAT starts!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -.- I need longer break actually i need to get myself really cool down first :( Anyway my holiday was not productive at all because most of the time I was missing you all the while....-Hmmph, people around always want to break the hope down but I am sorry guys, I will only follow my heart :)

BTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This coming Thursday to Saturday gonna be AWESOME because going to PENANG with the GANG!!!!!!!!!!! :D cannot wait already :P Long time never have a break already :) Time to get crazy again :D hahaha YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HERE I COME, PENANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, i think thats all for today


night :D

words are like water......

words are like water, what you spoke it will be there just like water that poured out cannot be collected back!!!!

after all i felt so bad and i know i am really got into a deep deep shit.... haihx -.- i couldnt blame anyone because is all my fault!!!! i didnt tell the truth!!! is all mine fault!!!! i am really sorry!!!!!

hopefully, i need to explain it clearly next time!!!!!! i know i really couldnt give the thing that was needed but i will give out all my best!!!! i am sorry if i ever touch the scar in your heart....

he was definitly right...i am glad he let me know the whole thing!!!!

i would never let it to happens again!!

i am sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Follow the heart....

Finally EE had over and now am having few days of sem break :) oh well, just gonna have a good rest for me because I didn't really plan anything much and whatever i had planned didn't happened!!

hmmph, could a week of not meeting up could change anything??? I am really wondering haha!!! It may sound so dumb but I am a dumb ass haha what to do :P I really hope miracles happens!!!! Let's pray to see whether it happens!!!!

maybe everything would be just fine after all??? or maybe things will get worst??? but one thing i know it wouldn't change is that 我依然在等待 :)

many had advise to give up but sorry to let them down!!! because probably you guys don't understand :)

even thought it is crazy, but I like it :) no matter what!!! No one could change it :) because i am following what i want to :) maybe let me live in my own world could be better :)

sometimes, you know thing doesn't seems to be happen but yet you still willing to wait :) because you enjoy the moment of waiting :) and yet you have less then 0.1% of hope that make you believe :)

sometimes thought of ending self life could be the best solution to move on but is move to another world :) haha

anyway, am off-ing to bed now :) NIGHT :D