愛笑的眼睛...

Currently having my EEs now!!! but didnt really study much because I keep slacking =.=

Basically, I just realized I gained a lot from life experiences in all sort of field. I know it may sound weird to you but trust me it ias really what I learned. I have to change from how i used to be. I had learn that saying and doing seems contrast. Some people think that saying it in a polite way will make you doesn't feel hurts. SORRY MAN! I am not going to listen to lies. Tells me the truth and at least I will feel real after hearing it....Whatever you said just trying to cover the "not interested in you" truth. THANKS FOR USING ME :) I KNOW I BECAME USELESS IN THE END THATS WHY THINGS HAPPENS BUT I LEARN SOMETHING NEW IN LIFE Words and action are like walls, after you hits it, you will only feel the pain but trust me after you heal, YOU WILL SEE THINGS so much differently... It doesn't works between us is because what we see in life is different and it is just something impossible to happen. Yet, you think that everything is gonna end the same way but sorry you are wrong, every situation in life is different.

AND I REALIZED ONE IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE... NOT TO REPEAT THE HISTORY BECAUSE IT IS STUPID TO DO THE SAME THING... END UP YOU WILL BE GETTING HURT THE SAME WAY!!!!!!

Actually, I really want to thanks you for letting me hitting the wall so hard to realized that how STUPID I USED TO BE !!!!!!!!

I AM NO LONGER THE STUPID ONE BECAUSE LESSON LEARNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

off to study :D

Last Embrace....

After a week of happiness, my mood got back!!!!! The feeling is back!!! taught it had gone away long long time ago.... it come back for no reason!!! why am i so dumb and stupid?? it is gone la weih!!!!! I shouldn't even bother about it because this is not even my responsibility.... always have to try to live to please someone...screw that!!! you are no longer the one i suppose to care about!!! you are just passer-by and i am not suppose to make any effort to let you stay because it is not how it suppose to be!!!!!! go away because i know i cannot have it and i dont need it anymore!!!!

When we look up the sky, we saw a different view!!!

"YOU ARE NOT THE ONE" I have to tell this to myself everyday!!!!!!

We are from different world!!!!!

Sometimes, a FAKE smile could really cover everything!!!!! lets fake it all the way until the end of all these!!! because this is the only thing that could make me feel like I AM ALRIGHT!!!!!!!

btw, thanks all my friends that wishes me on my birthday :) and those special one who bought me the present!!! I really love the shoe so much!!!!

August.....

time to get serious about all sort of things.... i really need to get myself out depression and be true... it is hurting and i couldnt handle it anymore... those fake smile and no meaning of caring all should be gone!!!!! this is not how i am suppose to be actually!!!! i should be the real mine....i should not need someone that doesnt need me!!!! if the chances is there probably i am leaving all these by next month... gonna go some where far and some where new to have a new life!!!!! i dont like these kind of life... it just keep bothering me!!!!! urgh!!!! i know where i stay and i know where i should be!!!!! i wont let any single person to do the same thing to me again!!!!! it is just too much.... i know i have my bros that understand the feelings... what other said , i wont bother anymore because i believe family will tell me everything and those who really know how much they mean to me.... i will not let anything bad to ruin my month!!! august!!!!!

i hope everything will be very peaceful this month and yet nothing gonna bother me at this months... and it is a very buzy months!!!!! i hope august would be great :) no one gonna break me down again!!!!!!!