我想我真的怕安靜!!!!!!

我又幫自己
訂了場電影
結果坐在廣場找你背影
人來了又去
我好懷念遲到有人會發脾氣

手機有收訊
簡訊不是你
打開了
更讓人失望到底
你走就走吧
幹麻留下每天沒看完的韓劇

我想我真的怕安靜
少了你吵我不開心
回家第一個開機
掩蓋所有的安靜
說不定我能夠撐過去

我想我真的怕安靜
連洗澡都要戴耳機
打電動聲東擊西
一停我又怕想起
唸我和愛我的人
我沒珍惜

你愛的歌手
又出了專輯
一樣好聽
可是特別痛心
歌詞每一句
根本辦不到還硬勸我要放棄

我想我真的怕安靜
少了你吵我不開心
回家第一個開機
掩蓋所有的安靜
說不定我能夠撐過去

我想我真的怕安靜
連洗澡都要戴耳機
打電動聲東擊西
一停我又怕想起
唸我和愛我的人
我沒珍惜

把鬧鐘 設不停 或許我 會清醒
我想等下去可惜愛不能靠毅力
要是我 挽回你 你一定 更傷心
愛一個人不一定要永遠在一起

真的怕安靜
不想去也硬要出去
逛鬧區到KTV
點你必點的歌曲
怎麼合唱的人不是你

原來我這麼怕安靜
是怕再也聽不到你
在廚房大聲唱歌
在沙發硬跟我擠
讓我終於曉得
我有多愛你
你已不在 這裡


ENJOY THE MOMENT OF WAITING!!!!!! :D BECAUSE THE FEELINGS HAD GONE BEYOND AND YET I AM SMILING AT THE MOMENT HAHAHAHA GUESS ALL MY FEELINGS GONE NUMB TILL I JUST SMILE ALL THE WAY :D SO NUMB SO NUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!! FELT HYPER WHILE THE REST THINKS YOU ARE STUPID :D

APPRECIATED THE MOMENT!!!!!!!!!!!! THING SEEMS TO CHANGING FROM BAD TO WORST :D BUT YET I DON'T MIND HAHAHA :D
BROTHERS ALWAYS BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T HAVE TO BOTHER WHEN YOU HAVE SUCH GOOD BROS!!!!!!!!!! :D

对你的思念很难用语言表达出来.,,

i am missing you now.... thats all i can say... i decided not to find you because i thought you could do the same but i am wrong.... i an always wrong!!!!!!! but i know no matter how much i am influences, i swont care and i will just wait!!!!! i will wait until the day to come!!!!!! i believe waiting is the power for me!!!!! i know i can do it because i am already deeply fall into!!!!!! my soul always tell me that the one day will come!!! it wont be a very fast but things are meant to be worth waiting!!!!!!!

sometimes, i was told that i am dumb but sorry, it is meant to be dumb because i know things are suppose to be worth waiting because it is a consider as a test for us to test how much it will worth to be!!!!!!

one day, it wont be any near but i know waiting is the only thing i could do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

愛犯了錯

I am seriously miserable now!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mun Hoo ask me a very good question just now... hmmmph, i really have no idea how to asnwer him because i also dont know what is the answer lorh....but i really want to know lorh... but haihz lets leave it first because i got something more important thing to do, i need to start study for ee from tmw onwards, if not i will sure gg for ee one!!!!!!

anyway, i will find out the answer later....

what about now?

since i have a bit bit of free time, i will just update about my week... this week is very memorable because my beloved grandma just passed away... she left me without any words :( i dont expect her to leave us so fast but she did just like that.... hope she really could live happy in her next life :) rip grandma

after these incident, i learnt that if theres something you want to make it clear, you better do it fast before you regrets and also if you misses it, you wont know will you still have the chance to wait until the next time...anything can happens the next minutes... therefore, i will tell out everything here, if you ever read it....

firstly, my feelings towards you is more then a friend, even that i told you that we are friends but i dont just treat you as a friend, i really care about you a lot. even if i dont show, i meant it like seriously. i dont mind you try to avoid me or something. i just cannot stop myself to stop that feelings towards you... trust me you mean alot to me.

i know i am not as good as what you think, but just let me treat you specially please, you can make those treat as a good friends treating you , as long as you let me to do so. i just cannot get over because i am already in the deep step of it already........ so just let stick the way we were please...

ee around the corner, i wishes you all the best and gets fantastic result :)

don't leave me...

hmmmph, just lost one of my closest person in my life.....haihz which is my grandma... ;( thats what i am getting now!!!!!! i feel so empty in a sudden.... a person that accompany me for almost 18 years and now she is not there anymore!!!!! ah!!!!!!!! why you wanna be so bad that you leave us without any words?????? i still need you la please i really need you you know!!!!!!!!

haihz, this is really faith!!!!! it is your choice actually. you choose to leave us just like that.... i really hope you could get a better place to live!!!!!! hmmmph, for now i dont think i still able to lose anyone!!!!!!!

to everyone, my friendsn my brothers, those i care alot about!!!! please dont make me lose anyone of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really you all to make my life be intresting and meaningful!!!!!!!!

haihz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

without you...

hnnnph, it is really seems useless that only i am the one who show it but you didnt accept it or you didnt even bother... i know it is impossible to me to continue that because i know you will still treat me same like the rest... i know whatever i say now wont mean anything to you. i have already choose to move on as what i have told.... it is really hard to take this step... and i know that i couldnt really move it on completely but then i will try my best...

i have to admit that met you was really my pleasure, but couldnt be with you was really disappointed...but screw that as long as we could be good friends that will be fine for me already :) because i know is not mine means not mine. i really appreaciated of what you did to me in the past and that will be a very memory for me :)

i have to thanks for everything :)

sorry to say that apart of you will be in my heart forever even if i couldnt get you :)

happy always :)

you are the reason I am here

hmmmph, i wonders if you will still read my blog??? actually, i got nothing much to comment about that because is your right or your choice to read it, i cannot force you to do so...

it is true that everyone is stressed up, no matter is you or me or anyone. just want to let you know gambateh! no matter what happens you can just give me a call or smth to let me know so that i could help you out... i know i cannot help much but at least let me know so that i could do something. i really dont want to see you becomes very stressful anf also something see you very down because of some reason. you wont know how much it could really make me happy if i could really help you out and help you to face problems...

probably, you are stronger then me but yet i still believe i could really help you out....

i hope you wont get pissed at whateveri said but i just want you to be happy and cheerful at all time because thats the cutest of you :)

hmmmmph, currently staying over at the hospital because everyone seems tired therefore, as a family memeber i should give a hand :)

anyway, i hope after you read this, you will let me to help you out :) or maybe if i annoyed you, i am sorry :)

say hello to goodbye, it will gone forever...

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! screw everything up already la!!!!!!!!! ee coming, psycho poster have to hand in, grandma in hospital!!!!!!! how to handle all these at once ah? damn fucked up already la!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! what can i do now?????????? i wanna go and sleep and nvr awakes again............. stop bringing more troubles to me!!!!!!!!

hmmmmmph, sometimes things really seems weird, you wanted it to happen last time, it will only start to happens now and you doesnt care about it now...... hmmph, is this hows life supposed be? or maybe timing problem? hmmmph, trust me...not that i am giving up or smth just that i understood that timing and also that good things worth waiting so lets pause it for awhile and play it back after everything back to normal!!!!!!! because i know mans cannot multi task and also multi task is very tiring... maybe things will be changing after today...

memorable past=not moving on but pause for awhile


i have to said that i have already lost!!!!! I lose everything already!!!! this is the process that could make me be stronger because after all the while i am not stromg at all hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmph!!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!! i am thinking of giving life up but whats the whole point? haihz fuck my life.... you all win already, i surrender already ah!!!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why is my life so miserable in a sudden one ah?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf is all this?????????? garhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my life is affected already, i have no choise but to follow hmmph ... do you think this is good thing? hmmmph!!!! what can i say much? my life just simply screw up, i am the one who causes it hmmph, i really need someone to hold on? but it really seems impossible haihz!!!! i must be strong and must not hold on anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope that before making a decision, there would be a preview of how it will affects our future but sadly, i doesnt seems exist in this world because no one can predict your future....... it is just too late to regrets, really hate myself for creating so many trouble to myself!!!!!!! i can only admit that i am dumb and stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the only thing i should say is

i am offically missing you!!! i know good things wont happens for the second time, but i kept all these in the deeply part of my memorises....no matter it is worth or not worth, i will just slowly wait....hmmph!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT, I DON'T LIKE SURPRISE OR WHATEVER SHIT BECAUSE I WANT TO GET MYSELF FULLY PREPARE BEFORE ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


DONT BOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO RELEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH THE BLOODY EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN THEY BE ANYTHING THAT I COULD BE HAPPY OF COMING INSTEAD OF THOSE SAD AND TIRING THINGS THAT KEEPS ON HURTING ME????? I AM REALLY SICK OF HURTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BEG YOU!!!!!!!! STOP COMING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED SOMETHING THAT'S HAPPY THAT WORTH ME BE LIVING AGAIN, PLEASE I BEG YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



BAD THINGS WON'T YOU FEEL TIRED BECAUSE YOU ARE KEEP ON MOVING ALONG TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHERES ALL THE HAPPY THINGS, DON'T BE SHY TO ME LA PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HMMMPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


DEAR BAD THING, IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT I MAKE YOU FEEL SO INTERESTED IN ME PLEASE STOP PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DON'T SCREW ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ALREADY ENOUGH OF ALL THESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED TO REST ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SURRENDER TO YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!












LASTLY,

NO MATTER WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW, NO MATTER HOW BAD THE SITUATION IS, NO MATTER WHAT'S WRONG BETWEEN US, I ALWAYS HAVE A VERY SINCERE HEART TO WAIT FOR YOU TO GIVE ME A CHANCE ONE DAY ...

淘汰

我说了所有的谎
你全都相信
简单的我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情
我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

虽然我愿意

HAVE THE VERY HIGH MOTIVATION TO KEEP UPDATE AND UPDATE BECAUSE THIS IS THE PLACE THAT I COULD ONLY TALK TO AND SHOUT OUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY IS THAT I HAVE LOST ALREADY!!!!!

I SURRENDER ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

I WISH I AM A ROBOT!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you won't know how much you mean to me, because you only have him in your heart ):

ahhhhh!!!!!! mentally and physically gonna break down soon... things happens too quicky when no one is prepared ah!!!!!! i feel so useless now...cant even handle a single things...haihz... ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to makes everything to be happy.... i want everyone around to be always happy and laugh!!!!! i must not tell anyone my sadness anymore because i dont want to see people to be sad!!!!!! people cheer up!!!! all i need you all to do is stay happy :)

ahhhh!!!!!! so sleepy *yawn non stops!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh and also grandma faster get well and i still need you to be around with me...dont leave us just like that... stay strong because i am waiting for you...

hmmmph, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

AH!!!!!!!

start of with raining in the morning....hmmmph, mood swing like the tree when winds blow...cannot predict what will happens next...maybe the nearest persom could hurt you the most? maybe the closest friends could make you feels moody? maybe? so many maybe on my mind now haihz... why are there so many things to worried about? hmmph... i dont wanna think so much but i know i cant do it... hmmmph.....seriously feels so miserable now.

hmmmph, i know you are very stress. i wll try to give you a hand to help you slove all your problems :) cheer up peeps :)

FIRST LOVE!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmph, had a very productive weekend....On Friday night, stayed over at grandparents place to teman them for a night because didn't really have much time to visit them lately...
Hmmph, Saturday went to KL with friends to get some stuff for I care day...then went for badminton with friends... At night, friends stayed over at my place...then, this morning went basketball, after that went pyramid and that's all for my whole busy weekend :)

Hmmph, have been thinking alot these few days, maybe because I was too erm maybe should say I have been really stress on something lately hmmph, I want to SHOUT IT OUT but then probably no one will care!!!! HAIHZ!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!!!!

WHY AM I THINKING SO MUCH?????
WHY OTHERS THINKS SO DIFFERENT??????
I DON'T WANT TO SCREW IT PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I PROMISE THAT I WILL TAKE STEP BY STEP TO MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


STEP
BY
STEP

IT IS THE BEST SOLUTIONS!!!!!!

SMILE!!!!!!NOT A FAKE ONE PLEASE!!!!

THIS SO BE ENOUGH!!!

NIGHT! NIGHT! NIGHT!