很有意思

【放手吧，別再死抱著 不適合的感情 】

在廚房忙著的媽媽，聽見她四歲小孩子的哭啼聲。她趕緊衝到客廳去看看孩子。原來，孩子的手插進了擺設用的《花瓶》裡。

《花瓶》上窄下闊，所以，小孩的手伸進去卻伸不出來。母親用了不同的辦法，想要把卡著的手拿出來，但都不得要領。

媽媽開始焦急，她稍為用力一點，小孩子就痛得叫苦連天。在無計可施的情況下，媽媽想了一個下策，就是把《花瓶》打碎。

可是她有些猶豫，因為這個《花瓶》是一件價值連城的古董。不過，為了兒子的手能夠拔出，這是唯一的辦法。結果，她忍痛將《花瓶》打破了。

雖然損失不菲，但兒子平平安安，媽媽也就不太計較了。她叫兒子將手伸給她看看有沒有損傷。

雖然孩子完全沒有任何皮外傷，但他的拳頭仍是緊握住似的無法張開。是不是抽筋呢？媽媽又再驚惶失措。

原來，小孩子的手不是抽筋。他的拳頭張不開，是因為他緊捉著一個十元硬幣。 為了這一個硬幣，所以手被卡在《花瓶》的口內。

小孩子的手伸不出來，其實，不是因為《花瓶》口太窄，而是因為他不肯放手。

感情的事，很多時都是盲目的。你曾為他做的事，當日，你是多麼的覺得天經地義；今天，你卻感到荒謬到極。

盲目是幸福的，《前提》是盲目能維持一生一世。

問題是，有一天，我和你都會像小孩子一樣，發現自己被感情問題卡住了，動彈不得。問題出現了，你煩得天都要倒下來。你希望尋求方法解脫，但全都徒勞。

別人說：「問題不是你所想的複雜，只是你肯放手就解決了。」你卻偏偏不肯放手。

這時，你不會想：「這樣值不值？」你只會自問：「我還愛不愛？」

只要是愛，你覺得再沒有甚麼要猶豫。你會很努力解決彼此之間的問題。你一直守下去，你不會放手。

其實，放手就立刻解決問題，只是大家都逃避這個事實。你寧願受著牢籠，都不願解脫。

「這段感情值得這樣折磨下去嗎？」你的朋友會勸你放棄。你不相信，這份愛，只是一枚十元硬幣。

你忍痛執著這份感情，不惜代價，消耗了許多眼淚，虛度了不少的歲月，放棄去認識可能﹝更適合你﹞的人。

放手，給你帶來更大的釋放，讓你擁有全新的人生。

為了區區十元，打碎了一個古董花樽，小孩子當時不會了解，也不會後悔，因為他不了解他執著那個硬幣的機會成本是那麼大。

* 故事中的小孩長大了之後，才會了解花樽的價值，也才會明白自己昔日的愚昧 ^.^

快乐要靠自己不断努力寻找 等待它的出现并不可靠

很多事情不是靠执着就可以换来的，譬如爱情，它是靠感觉来的。
就算我对你有在多的好感，可是你对我没有感觉的话。
所有事情都白费。因为，只是我一个在等待吧！！
人不是每次在愛情里，都成功的。
所以可以试着不要抓的太紧，试下放手。
如果是你的一定会回来的。
做人看开一点，什么事情都会变间单。
可是，人不可以还没坚持到最后，就放弃！
坚持有时是一种责任，一种信任！！！
答应的事情，一定要做到，就算不能也要尽全力！

Decision

我做了对的选择吗？ 说真的我不知道因为未来的事没有人懂。
我只知道我答应你的事情，我一定会做到！！！！
💪💪💪💪💪💪💪为了你我拼了！！！！！！！😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
我知道不会容易，可是世上无难事，只怕有心人！！！！！ 😊😊😊😊
加油加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😊😊😊

很多事情不是我们可以控制的，想的太多是浪费力气和精神。。。
它要吗来，不要就不要咯，不要一直去烦恼啦！！！
想酱多，它不来你就暗脆，来了就好咯！！！！
先做好自己啦！！！！！
自己拿来烦的！！！！

男人

19岁而已，做了决定就不要害怕结果，如果怕就不要去做。没有人拿枪逼你!!!!
不要等到后悔了才去伤心。

Goodbye, The Truth... RIP...

原来我一直怀疑的事情更本就没有存在过，也真的我一直在多想而已。
所以呀，我想到真的觉得自己很可笑，原来我真的好笨哦！！！！！
我不会怪你因为你真的并不懂，我也保证不会有历史从演！！！！！
所以现在，我什么都不想了，因为为了一个人付出不定要回报啊！！
只要你开开心心的，我也很满足了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

而从今开始，我发誓此事我不会在和任何人提起了！！！！！！！！

to get what you cannot get, you must do what you had never did before

I believe external force is making things worst, therefore, I have hand in the question to god. I know He will give me a satisfied answer :) eventho, if He do not, I will bear with all the consequence :) I know I have to see things on different angle. Not always the first angle is the best view, because first angle could sometimes be a mistake or even something had blocked it. Therefore, we can view from different angle :)

Let's slowly and wait miracles to happen. Right time, Right place and the Right person will arrived :) I have no rush over it any more :) I believe good things always come in the end :) lets do your best and wait for things to happen :) 

Everything will be great with a positive mind :D 

Friendship

Pure frienship ; PERHAPS

单纯的友谊 ; 我怀疑着

我不明白我自己在想什么，也不懂在期待什么。

对你来说也不重要，也许是没重要过。

也是我一厢情愿而已吧。

也许也是我一个人在胡思乱想。

不管是还是不是

好了不想了，等你找个好男友吧！！！

就当永远的好朋友吧

New Journey

It had been long time since i last writing anything here. Times flies, it had already been mid of august, everything seems fine i suppose. For the past few weeks, have been a lot of question running in my mind. There were goods and bads. Alot of things happened past thru the last 2 months. A lot of things are seems to be changing, enviroment, taughts, people and many many more. But still i am still clear of what i want and needs.

人永远都有不可告知的秘密，有一个没人知道的一面。

后悔只是一个让自己好赶过翩的借口而已，因为选择是自己决定的。

I know at this point of time i am regret because it was once what i wanted. But i simply just cannot do anything about it.

Things happens for a reason, the reason may be faith....

有缘无份。

Music

Recently, i realised something weird about myself.... 我发现我爱上爱唱歌的女生了，她们的歌声深深把我吸引了。可能是因为我太爱听歌了吧、对她们都有一种崇拜的感觉吧！！！可能也是因为我太想念妳的歌声了吧。我希望以后可以找到一位和妳一样爱唱歌的女生吧。。。。。

Money vs FReedom

可能金钱这东西让人又爱又恨。在金钱的世界里，可以把人性和性格分开很多种。有时候，人赚钱不是因为没钱，而人花钱不是因为没钱。

I don't know why but it is just very weird... This week I had taught of a lot of things related to life. I once think if I could have money, i could settles things I needed or properly I could settle my life. But, I know I was wrong. Not everything on the earth you could buy with money. For example, families, relationship, happiness. But, I was wrong.

I realized I was really lucky to have such family. From what I saw, I know everything single must have scarifies. MONEY vs FREEDOM!!!! Could this be true???? I don't know cause I haven't really step into the life of careers.

But, whenever I saw you, you reminds me of how lucky I am. I know you have been working so hard just for your goals and dreams. I really feel that I really cannot give a hand but to watch you having hard times.

Your smile, your voice. I still deeply remember... You are one happy penguin that should live happily :) really hope you get well soon and get to set all the foods you were cravings for :)

不具名的悲傷

It is time to let go,

It is time to move on,

Everything that reminds of me is just the memories and those things I expected... 

I will never touch or say about it again!!! 

I know it is already impossible, everything just had to end now... so why still so stubborn to hold it!!!

Werther it worth me to do a not?? I believe this answer will be review by time!!! 

TIME!!!! That's what everyone need.. No all the things can be gone or forget by a blink of eyes...

Life is just like a clock!! You cannot move the real time back, you can only adjust the time but not the things it already happened!!! 

Even there is a chance, still you won't confirm you won't make the same mistake or decision...

Therefore, just take precaution or get ready for those things it may happen...

I am going to make sure this is the last time I am going to talk about these...

EVERYTHING IS OVER!!! EVERYTHING IS DONE!!! NO POINT OF STAYING STILL ALREADY!!! MOVE ON!!!

伊默

在这年龄的我太幼稚了。每天都在烦无聊的事情，而跟你比起来你在烦的事情比我的还要重要x10倍！！！！！我好想很幼稚哦

什么是爱？？？
说起我真的不懂，我只知道是要让心中的你开心，无论做什么都好。可能这也是我唯一会做的事情。我真的不知道未来会怎样，所以我也不知道要放多少，但是从一开始我就把整颗心放在你身边了。我也慢慢的习惯不在去打扰你了。我只希望你快乐开心。因为，想太多也没有，因为，只能想而以。算了不想了。。。

可能一开始我们都不适合彼此。。。
我们也只配当朋友。。。。。。

我现在是时候把自己处理好！！！！才去想未来！！！！

你过的好我就安了 （：

洋蔥

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密...

天后

Seriously it had been quite some time since we last have talk or we even meet up but I just wanna say I really miss you... From the start, everything I taught is just all my feelings, I know I didn't bother about yours much and I don't even stand at your side to think about it...

Sometimes, not everything will fade away by time, some feelings is permanent, this has show how strong is it...

Everything that we had gone trough, every single word you had said all I still remembered clearly... Hope I wish we just stay that way... I know this is fate, no matter what I did or what happened all had set...

Sometimes, people must try to control themselves, control their feelings, taught, emotions....

Everything just worth to remember and put in the memories....

距离

Even tho, I seems down and lonely now here. I don't need anyone to make me feel that I am actually meaningful because deep inside my heart I already had that one person that make me feel like I am actually living meaningfully in this world.

Even tho, I know that this person only supposed for me to think inside and not let me show it out loud to cause any problems, I really don't mind because I know I can't had her. I will just keep it inside my heart. I don't mind the distance how far because I know she is inside my heart. I don't even need to meet her, I will feel that she will also around me.

I can actually live happily as how I like. I don't even need to bother what people talk about me. Single is just a status, your heart determined what your position. So don't stress over the future, don't regret for the past, live you life max present.


Even tho, sometimes I am jealous about it but I know i cannot talk about it, because talk won't change things, so I will use my action to just make myself feel better :) I know what's best for me!!!! I really don't needs gone to tell me....

Recently, I had watched a movie. From the movie, I had learnt that everything is fate, everything is already set, no matter how many a couple that broken and couple with someone else, in the end he or she will be back together because this is fate and they. Are meant to be together, every tints happens just because of misunderstanding and problems. All this is done to show that that how important is another half and they had to see how strong their love are!!!! long distance is seriously a big problem... In the end they still get back to each other... :)


Actually I am trying to say that let's not force anything just go with the flow, if it is yours, end of the day it will go back to you :)


Anyway, finals tmw wish me luck :D



Nights :)

勇气

命运就是如此的奇怪，明明两个相爱着对方的都没的在一起。而和你走一生的确不是你心中最想要的那位。事情就是如此的奥秘。

其实，我发现你是那给了我最多感觉的那位。是你让我无法在对任何人跟好。是你对我的人生有了最大的改变。是你让我感觉到对一个人的真心。是你教会我很多事情。感谢你的路过，感谢你给的美好回忆。是你让我明白了命运。

You're...

HAVE YOU?!

Have you ever feel the feeling of hurt?? Have you ever realised that person you taught have give up but still there waiting for miracles? People that involved in it will never realised what is that situation are!!! Sometimes, they just need people around to remind them what happens....

Hearts that never breaks...

Whenever you feel heartache probably it is because your heart are learning to grow stronger to withstand the amount of painfulness inside you. You will never know you are that strong until in the end you realised it is the only way you can do it. People always say go with the flow but how many people will really go with the flow. I believe every human being are curious, they will always start to ask WHY WHY WHY??? when they feel that the thing has changed or even didn't went the way they wanted. When they realised probably it hard for some to accept the fact that things had changed.

But have we tried to think why is all these happening everyday???? Do we even realised that things had changed?? It could be a good or a bad sign.

不自量....

If letting go was easy, probably I am a happy guy again.... Sadly, it did happens... I always wished that I could turn off the button of feelings and on when I need it... I really cannot rake it anymore.... I never mean to go any further even after you made it clear... But I just cannot control myself!!! If I don't have feelings I won't do so much just to see that smile from you...

I know it is not a easy job to do it but I had always tried my best to....

我知道你从来对我没有感觉，可是我还是渐渐的喜欢上了你。

I really tired if these!!!! Finals less then 2 weeks and I didn't touch any books yet!!! Pftttt shall start soon!!!

Night!!! Really exhausted!!!!!! 

梦

If I said I am alright I am actually lying. Tell me please which human being is so strong until when they hurt they will still laugh around... But to say hurt it wasn't really that deep.... Seriously those kind if weird feelings really hard to express it out.

maybe because I am jealous of those who have it but not me.. I am pissed at myself that I am always the one that got rejected. Do I have a chance to fight back??? NO!!!! Cause I know nothing will go with your flow... You just have to be a follower not a leader.... A single priority I also cannot have so what's the point of me wanting thing to go with my flow...

I shall just work my best by keeping what's belongs to me not to just steal it from someone else... I shall stop waiting what's not gonna happens at all... I just want to me... I shall stop giving face... I just gonna say what I want to say!!!! To be cruel and it will make things even clearer... It is to help you to see yourself truly!!!!

I shall stop reminding myself what had gone and start thinking what's happening now!!!! Stop and think what's the best solution now!!!!

I shall remind myself that if It is meant to be, stop using external force. It will be useless!!!


Everything happens for a reason, you may know it or you may not... Stop wondering and complaining... Start your action!!!! It may be useless if only talk without doing!!!!!!!!

Be yourself and leave the rest to god!!! Everything will be fine :)

What is life???

Life is a mysterious journey that we ourself must discover and walk through!!! Maybe sometimes, you think that you are always unlucky, but please look at those that are probably worst then you!!!! They try their best to stay strong and work so hard to live!!!!

BUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You dont even have to worry about you living everyday and yet you complain so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the fuck is wrong with you alex chu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just that you cannot get the things you always wanted that does not mean that you are unlucky!!!!!!!!! you should look at the other side of your life!!!!!!! You should believe that all the LOVE from FAMILIES, CARE from FRIENDS would surly cover that small part of RELATIONSHIP!!! It is not like you need a person to hold on to survives!!!! If that it is, then HOW THE FUCK YOU HAVE BEEN TROUGH FOR THE PAST 18 ++++ YEARS!!! LET TO LOOK ON THE OTHER SIDE PLEASE NOT JUST THAT SIDE THAT ALWAYS MAKE YOU FEEL SAD AND DISAPPOINTED ABOUT!!!!!!!

LEARN TO BE TOUGH ABIT PLEASE!!! IT SURE WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER !!!! DONT THINK THAT YOU ALWAYS UNLUCKY!!! MAYBE THIS IS THE WAY THAT YOU SHALL LIVE ON FOR DONT KNOW HOW MANY YEARS!!! JUST BECAUSE OF A SMALL MATTER YOU WANNA GIVE UP IN LIFE!!! THEN WHATS THE POINT YOU LIVE FOR THE 18 YEARS++!!!!!

LEARN PLEASE LEARN!!!!! NOT EVERYTHING ALSO CAN BE SO SMOOTH ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF EVERYTHING IS SMOOTH THEN WHAT'S IS THE INTERESTING PART OF YOUR LIFE????

AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE MAKE A GOAL FOR YOURSELF PLEASE!!!!!!!! STOP BEING SO LAZY THAT JUST SLACK EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! WITHOUT A GOAL, YOU WONT KNOW WHAT YOU DO ARE RIGHT OR WRONG!! PROBABLY YOU ARE JUST WASTING YOUR FUCKING EVERY MINUTE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LEARN TO GROW UP!! STOP STAYING IN THE FUCKING PAST!!! ALWAYS TELL PEOPLE NOT TO LOOK BAD BUT WHO THE FUCK IS LOOKING AT THE PAST NOW!!!!

STOP REGRETTING AT YOUR DECISION PLEASE!!! EVERYTHING HAD GONE!!! WHAT YOU CAN DO IS TO JUST WISH EVERYONE THEIR BEST AND START TO TREAT YOURSELF WITH LESS HURTING TOWARDS YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

结束

如果好人总是最后被伤的话，那这一次我决定做最后一次。
我在也不要当好人了。
我也不需要因为让别人开心而做傻瓜。
我也不要因为把别人的快乐建立在自己身上。
我不要因为别人而改变自己。
因为改变一点都不好玩的。
我也要因此而跟爱自己。
不要每次都把自己搞的伤痕累累。
真的很累了。
我不玩了。
每次都是输家。
太没兴致了。
我只想说既然你都说的那么清楚。
我真的不许要你的任何关心。
我想没有了，我也可以好好的过。
必经，这又不是第一次 。
可是，这将会是最后一次。

晚

学不会

人总是很犯贱，我就是一位很好证明。
每次当遇到感情事情时，都很执迷不悟地认为你会给我一次我要的答案。
当每次被伤害后，都会傻傻的把自己看得很自卑。
我真的有问题吗？
是我太不了解事情的经过吗？
是我没把自己管好吗？
是我给不了安全感吗？
我真的很差吗？
我真的希望在读每位给我一个真心的答案。可以吗?请留言在那留言板。

拜

The one that got away...

Seriously!!!! I dont know what i am doing but seriously, i just feel like something bad gonna happen????? i sure not give a damn?? but how??? what the fuck is wrong!!!!! please stop bothering me!!!!

所謂的伊默，不一定痛哭流涕，然後耍自閉。 笑得再燦爛，再快樂，心裡還是會有回音。 很空，寂寞在吵。

EMOTIONAL, DOES IT NEED TO SHOW IT OUT OR JUST KEEP IT INSIDE??? TODAY SEEMS LIKE A BAD DAY FOR ME!!!! SERIOUSLY CANNOT HOLD IT ALREADY! WHY EVERYTHING JUST SIMPLY DOES NOT SEEMS RIGHT FOR ME!! EVERYTHING IS LIKE GOING AGAINST ME!!! JUST THAT TODAY I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS GOING AGAINST ME!!!! NO ONE WOULD EVER LISTEN TO ME!!!!!! OR JUST THAT I THINK TOO MUCH????

WHY IS THAT I DO NOT FEEL THAT IT IS GETTING BETTER!!! DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG???? IT IS NOT PROGRESSING MUCH!!! I THINK MAYBE I TOO SENSITIVE??? OR I AM SERIOUSLY VERY SENSITIVE!!!!! I TRY TO NOT PUT MUCH FEELING ON IT BUT THEN MY HEART DOES NOT WANT TO LISTEN TO ME :(

ACTUALLY I REALLY WANT TO KNOW IS IT MY PROBLEM THAT HOW I TREAT A PERSON OR JUST THAT NOT MANY PEOPLE WILL I WORK WITH MY WAY??? WHY??? IT SEEMS LIKE I ALWAYS FAIL TO GET A PERSON??? BUT I DO NOT WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF BECAUSE OF ANYONE... HAVE BEEN TROUGH THAT BEFORE... THE FEELING DOES NOT FEEL NICE!!! !IT IS NOT THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE!!! ! WHY THERE CANNOT BE A WIN WIN SITUATION??? WHY MUST ALWAYS A SIDE GIVE IN ALL THE BEST JUST TO COOP WITH THE OTHER ONE???? SERIOUSLY!!! I FED UP OF MYSELF!!! I REALLY DO NOT LIKE HOW I ALWAYS GOT MYSELF IN UNWANTED PROBLEM!!!

BASICALLY WHAT I WANT IS JUST A LESS COMPLICATED LOVE STORY OR I COULD JUST DO NOT NEED ANY LOVE RELATIONSHIP!!!! I BELIEVE I CAN BE STRONG ALL BY MYSELF :)!!! EITHER HAVE IT OR JUST LEAVE IT!!!! YEA THAT IS WHAT I WANT!!! :) I DO NOT THINK THAT IS HARD FOR ME TO DO!!!

PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY GO WITH THE FLOW BUT HOW MANY PEOPLE REALLY CAN DO THAT??? WE HUMAN ARE ALWAYS GREEDY, IF YOU ARE NOT THEN YOU ARE NOT HUMAN :P. WE ALWAYS WANT A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH THAT PERSON DON'T WE??? BUT HOW MANY PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD IS LUCKY??? BASICALLY EVERY RELATIONSHIP BEGIN WITH FEELS!!! BUT YET!!! HOW MANY PEOPLE WILL ACCEPT THAT FEEL???

SAYING IS EASY BUT THE DOING PARTS ARE JUST NOT EASY!!!!

I THINK THAT'S ALL FOR THE DAY!!!!! GOTTA CIAO!!!

快樂，難過，生氣，悲傷，低潮，興奮... 人的所有情緒，構成了人生里每一個不同的故事。

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY I HAD A BAD DAY!!!! REALLY PISSING OFF DAY!!!!! GOT CAUGHT BY THE POLICE!!! THEN GOT DDLY BY PEOPLE!!!! AND SOMETHING THAT REALLY DISAPPOINT ME MUCH WHEN I TAUGHT THAT WAS THE ONLY GOOD THING I TAUGHT COULD HAPPENS!!!! SORRY MAYBE I JUST PUT TOO MUCH EXPECTATION!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY ALL THESE THINGS REALLY MAKE FEEL DAMN SIEN!!!!!!!!! MY LIFE ISN'T THAT COLOURFUL AS I TAUGHT!!!!! LETS STOP PISSING MYSELF OF FOR ALL THE SHIT HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FULLSTOP

RECENTLY, I REALISED I AM MORE INTERESTED AT THOSE GIRL WHICH IS MUCH MORE OLDER THEN ME!!! MAYBE BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO MATURE HUH??!!!! BUT YET, I WONT BECAUSE I ADORE THEM SO MUCH THAT I WILL GO FOR THEM!!! FOR ME THIS TYPE OF GIRL ARE REALLY QUITE ATTRACTIVE THO! THE WAY THEY REACT AND THEY WAY THEY THINK IS SO MATURE!!! I EVENTUALLY WILL KNOW HOW TO CARE ABOUT OTHERS! THEY ARE CONSIDERED!!!! I ADORED THEM BY HOW THEY PLAN FOR THEIR LIFE!!! THEY ALWAYS HAVE THEIR OWN WAY OF DOING THINGS AND WAYS OF SOLVING PROBLEM!!!! LIKE THIS GIRL I MET SHE IS ONLY 1 YEAR ELDER BUT YET SHE ABLE TO BE SO SUCCESSFULLY IN ACHIEVING HER DREAMS, EVEN, SHE IS WORKING BUT YET SHE MANAGED TO FOCUS ON HER JOBS AND DREAMS TOGETHER!!! IN FUTURE. I REALLY HOPE I COULD MEET HER MORE AND KNOW MORE ABOUT HER!!!! EVEN SHE LOOK SO STRONG OUTSIDE BUT THEN I CAN SEE THAT SHE ACTUALLY NEED SOMEONE THAT COULD GIVE HER THE SAFENESS SHE ALWAYS WANT!!!!!

HEREBY, I SINCERELY HOPE SHE COULD GET A GOOD GUY TO BE WITH HER THROUGH OUT HER LIFE!!! I ADORE HER AND I WOULD MAKE HER AS MY IDOL!!! :) I WANNA THANKS HER FOR SINGING THE FEW AWESOME SONG!!! EVEN SINCE THE FIRST TIME WE MET :D

NIGHT :)

Blahblahblah

All if sudden, feel like crapping again!!!! I shall no regret on my decision!!! Cruel to yourself make things less complicated!!!!

Everyone had changed!!!! Some changes are just hard to accept but what I can do is just to accept it!!!!! I never I could be so failed!!! But it is good also it let me see how screw I am now!!!! It also let me realized, I am the one the had problem not the others!!!!!! I think I shall just don't give a fuck about this!!!! I know what is good for me!!!!

Whatever it is, what I can do is just chilled and think about what is my next step!!!! Seriously I don't need anyone to let me feel that I am actually worth loving for!!!! Because I know all these are lies!!!! It is the biggest joke on earth!!!!! If you disagree then I am speechless!!!!!

I know what is best for me!!!! I no need people to tell an remind. I know how to express my feelings!!!! I don't think people around are bother but except for few of them!!!

Those people are seriously the one you can actually totally be yourself and they are still feel comfortable with you!!!!!! I like this feelings and spending times with them!!! They know how to treasure and appreciate!!!!!! In front of them I can be all myself!!!! I like who I mix that could make me feel happy and know the value!!!!!

Anyway!!! I think I will stopped my chee sin ness and get my ass off to the bed!!!!!


Night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

错了在错

I was wrong all the while!!!!! I taught when I cone to uni life will be much better!!!!! I was wrong!!!! It just turn worst!!!!

The truth is you will hardly find people that could understand how you feel!!!! Most of them are just noisy!!!! You will never get what you in the end!!!!!!

Something was bothered and pissed me off today!!!!! for you people may think is a small problem but can you all actually think of the other way!!!! I know you all want benefit but please think properly first!!!!

Probably my life had fell to the bottom that's why so many thing doesn't seems right for me!!!!! Argh!!! Seriously fuck life!!!!!

I swear from now onwards who ever wanna to talk about me you better shut up!!! For those who think I need their attention fuck off please!!!! For those who want to show care to me, I suggest you not too!!!!! I won't give a damn!!!!!!

I will stop wasting my fucking time on those people I think is unwanted and those doesn't appreciate!!!!!!! If you realized somethings has gone wrong you better keep you fucking mouth shut and say nothing!!! Because I have change!!! I won't be like how I used to be!!!

I shall stop bothering how people thinks about me!!!! I won't give a damn to it!!!! You wanna think is your problem!!!! I can just say I have reason on what I did!!!!

I advise those people that doesn't really know the story of me please don't waste time judging!!!! Your choice I cannot say anything much!!!! I will only listen to those that understands me :) because at least they know the behind story!!!!!

Somehow, I believe action doesn't really speaks out a person personality and attitude!!!! So know him/her well enough only you start to think the thing he/ she doing is Right or wrong!!!!! So please doesn't because he/she did something that public think is bad then you all think he/she doesn't have a good personality and have attitude problem!!!!!


Enough of all these!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Night!!!!

不是故意

I guess everything have end :) I realized one thing when you fall for a person, you will be emo hahaha but now I am alright dy!!!! I know where's the limit and when to stop :) I know I may sound mean but seriously, I must stop at the nonsense because I don't want to create problem anymore!!!! I don't want to waste anymore time!!! I shall just start and get my ass off to studies instead of playing a fool!!!!! :)

Trust me!!! To be cruel to yourself, you surly won't get hurt much!!!! Like me now :D

I know what's happening around so let's just continue my journey!!! I believe I had cross the difficulties part!!!! Let's continue :D

To be true, I cannot find any reason why people can change so fast maybe is because I change slow hahaha :P

And also, I really cannot find such quality girl like you weih! Eventho, I don't have the feel for you!!! I really treat you like my younger sis :D I just want to protect you like how I protect my family and also treat you like how bro treat sis :) I don't mind giving the best to you because I had never find someone like this before!!!! hahaha


I know you will treat the same :) I believe you can be happy too when you meet someone you love :) I really hope that someone will treat you well :) I don't want to see you get hurt again!!! Did I mention that your smile is the most beautiful one I ever see haha this is so true :)

Anyway, I feel so much better after advise :) haha


Bye :D

北極星的眼淚

Humans are really complicated!!!! You know the feelings of FTW!!!! when you fall for on that you not supposed to???? The feelings that so fucked up your mind but yet you still cannot do anything??? How fucked up I am to bring such problem to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what I can say, I am just trying to get myself in troubles!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!!

It is the life I want???
Is that the person suits me????
Does that person what I worth to fight for????
Is that the RIGHT ONE????
You never know how much a heart will ache when you feel for someone???
Thats fuked up!!!!!

Feelings is there, but the faith is not there!!!!!!!
Does true love really exist???
True love really can win everything????
whatever it is should i continue???
Does it worth me to hold on???
Does everything have an good endings????
HANG ON or MOVE ON???
HOLD ON or GIVE UP???
ANY SUGGESTION???
CAN YOU GIVE ME A SIGN TO MOVE TO THE NEXT STEP????



SIGN PLEASE!!!!!!!
FUCK LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forever love!!!!

Are you the one? Should I put everything on you again? I am scare of getting hurt anymore!!! I am scare that history will repeat. I don't want to to be so confident and end up get fucked up again!!!! When come to these things, I am so stress about you!!! I know I am lack of confident and I am scare to get hurt again!!!! I know you are a very good person!!!! I also you know you quite straight forward but then I am just scare because you too friendly!!!! I don't know :( I need someone to help me :( I need someone clam me down and could just give me some advice!!!! I am really terrified about this!!!! I don't know what should I do to protect myself!!!!! I am tired and I am scare :(

我的心中有很深的伤口

actually, the scar still there. just that i need someone else to cover it up for me!!! i dont know who but seriously cannot be you anymore!!! i rather choose to give up then be the awkward way we were!!!! i dont know that someone i mention could let me cover up!!!! You just cannot simply move on, but you need someone else to carry you forward!!!


I sincerely wish you have a greast future!!! I know someone else could love you more then I used to be!!!! I hope your one will treat you better then how i used to treat!!!

there are alot of things I decided not to tell because i know even i tell it wont change anything!!! I tried so best not to even bother about you but sometimes, i will hate myself for seeing you like that!!!!

sometimes, those memories still stay fresh in my mind no matter how long it happens!!!!

After all these happens, i am really afaird to fall for someone because i dont want to get the same outcomes again! i dont mind being single then being hurt again!!! I shall try my best to keep myself single until i am out to work :) thats the best solution i think :)

i shall focus everything on my studies then will talk about others :)

金玉良言

Whatever it is please go away from me!!!!! I am getting unwanted stress.... No matter how hard I tried it just never get off!!! Life is like that huh? Probably!!!! But everything happen for a reason. So, I cannot blame but have face it all by myself!!!! I know I can do it!!!!



Those words are hurts!!!! But what can I do? I don't think many will understand how do I feel. Hard to believe things had change so much just 2 months!!! It is getting from bad to worst!!! Everything had just turn into hi and bye... That's all!!!

Hmm ph....

It is so shame to talk about yesterday, but to risky to talk about tomorrow, therefore, let's living it up today!!!!!!!

Things can changes with just a blink of eyes!!!! Gotta learn to cruel about to ourselves, so that we ourselves won't get so much hurt!!! Learn not to think, not to miss and not even have to say much words about you.....

2012!!!!

Feels so moody this few days... For some reason, it shouldn't exist now but why it is here??? What ever man!!! Just wait till my uni starts with lecture next week and everything will be fine!!!!!!!

2012!!!!

Feels so moody this few days... For some reason, it shouldn't exist now but why it is here??? What ever man!!! Just wait till my uni starts with lecture next week and everything will be fine!!!!!!!